yesterday was fun..

but the fucked at the same time. mehhh i dont get people. way to be fucking considerate. watev. im not gunna get worked up over nothing. and its funny how this sorta "drama" just dispersed out of nowhere. funny. i dont get it personally.

ugh. but on a more serious note. i STILL havent gotten my diploma. WTF..im worried now. and for those i havent told yet, yea..so i cant go to SU anymore because i havent gotten my diploma in. they even gave me a week extension to turn it in and fucking beamer still hasnt returned my call. how great is that? to not being going to college. well correction. i AM gunna go. community college. mehh but i dont know which one. of course theres highline but EVERYONE goes there. but i still think i should just go there anyway? at least ill know some people & its not too far right? but i was also considering BCC. or TCC. or maybe somewhere in auburn like bitch suggested. ehhh idk. wherever i go, i know im gunna move out..mehhh idk. im ready to be on my own. plus now that ill be 18 soon, i really have no excuse for stick around at home when my mom pisses me off. wherever i go, i need to register soon. i probably will just go to hghline. ehh. watev. dont really care anymore. i dont wanna go too far anyway. here are my plans for the coming month (s) or so:

-register for school: yea. self-explanatory.

-find a job: NOT fast food. hell no. & now that ill be 18, hopefully ill find something better than minimum wage.

-get an apt: i already found one over by highline and its actually not bad. its fucking cheap too.

ehhhhh. i dont know what else..

im really getting tired of people. i dont know why. im not mad at anyone or anything. maybe just tired of seeing the same people day after day after day. ehhhhhhh. its probably cause its just so predictable of what will do or watev. that is so tiring. but im excited for fraggles party. chyea.

i need a boo.

haha..wow. i do..but theres no one i swear. and i havent liked anyone in forever. mrgesrfhtrhwdfdg. i think i gave up. eh.

SOOO. i got fired yesterday.

all because of that stupid fat bitch jessica.

you know what? that is total bullshit. i got fired by Rachael the ASSISTANT manager. just btw.

shes not even the fucking manager..only the REAL manager can say if im really fired or not but she doesnt come back until tomorrow so ill see what she has to say. no one elses opinion fucking matters. this is hella fucked up..they're trying to decide this while shes gone on fucking vacation. pshhh -_- i hope they get bit in the ass for this one cause debbie (the GENERAL manager) doesnt even know what happened yet..ugh bitchhhhes. they cant decide shit.

besides. rachael may be the fucking assistant manager but you know what? ive been here wayyyy longer than she has. and jessica too. i started working there Oct. 2005, jessica came in like March 2006 and Rachael JUST got here June 2006..haha debbie knows that im a good worker too so you know what? fuck them. if i really am fired. ohhh you better believe they will have HELL to pay..

you may have seen PISSED andrea, but you've never seen CRAZY andrea..

jessica is such a mother fucking drama queen at that..she OVEREXAGGERATED the situation like no other..pshhh but thats okay, because there were three other people there when we fought..brandon, brad & rod. and brandon already said he would talk to debbie and rachael for me cause what jessica said wasnt even the truth.......ahhh im so pissed. i swear, if i DO get fired, she will be fired too. pshhh if someones gunna try to take me down, ill take them down with me.

i can't believe the day is finally here. Graduation.

well its not here. But tomorrow but whatev. its approaching. is that better?

you know what i really miss? Last summer. i really don't think i've ever had that much fun. all i did was hangout with Brandi & Jon everyday. every single day. i miss that. it seems like already everyone has formed their new little cliques or watever. and thats fine, im just making a statement. i just think soon enough we're all gunna, break away from each other? not all of us..but alot.

it was bound to happen sooner or later. accident?

ah well. its aiiiiiiight.

i miss the old group though. memoryspritt.

cigs = bad

i'm quiting..foreals..not even joking. i think i had a revelation? stupidly i just realized..they're BAD..accident?

i know but they're like..not my thing anymore..whatev.

today certainly wasn't anything special..school was just school..but everywhere i went, i could feel tension about one thing or another..ehhh i guess thats just what high school is all about..drama? whatever..

after school i went to the library to work on my CWP project and of all people, who did i see? brian..it was just..awkward. i hadn't seen him since..when was it? the last day of school last year? i don't know..can't remember. but when i saw him, like..i didn't even care. usually i'd buckle and i'd feel all weird inside from seing him..but i just didn't care. the whole time i was there, he'd walk by me..numerous times..i didn't even bother looking at him. just the one time when i caught him looking at me and i made eye contact with him..i admit, i felt weird. like, not the unusual weird. just like..i can't explain it. basically it just made me wonder if i still felt something for him..anything at all? but don't worry..i don't. i just had to ponder it to make sure..yea. anyway..

so..i started seeing a therapist last week. i don't really think its gunna help me with "going off" but its good to have someone to talk to about all the crap i don't want to tell anyone else..he suggested i start boxing? he said i seem very aggressive and it would help me relieve some of that..i think i'm gunna try it..i've always wanted to sooo i guess heres my chance.

........just felt like updating i guess?